Healing

Growth happens when you are prepared to learn from a bad experience regardless of how you feel about it. I have learnt that you cannot be afraid of the process, the pain. You have to allow God to use your pain to renew you, meaning you are in total surrender of his will for you at that moment and you let go and let God. 

it is easier to run back to the pain because it is easier than feeling the pain itself, but you couldn't be more wrong. If you keep running back? you will never see what the future holds, or the lesson is about to bless you with. It takes trusting in our heavenly father and having faith in what he is doing. 

STEP 1 - If your experience is not giving you what you rightfully believe you deserve? PRAY & Let God. what this means is you accept your situation, without trying to help God in turning your situation around. IT IS NOT YOUR JOB

STEP 2 - BE FIRM IN YOUR IDENTITY - Know who you are, if you know yourself? no one can tag you in a team you clearly do not belong to. The scriptures state that :"You are the light of the world- like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden". We all know the purpose of light in the darkness. When you find your identity in christ ? all there is for you is to let your light shine. 
Do not let the opinions of others diminish that because, in the long run, you will find out that their opinion really has nothing to do with you or your purpose on earth. And while you're firm in your identity? it is not your duty in telling people about who or what you are. Light speaks for itself in darkness. 

STEP 3- Guard your heart - When you don't guard your heart? you don't know your worth because you allow anything into your heart, you allow people to bring you out of your character. 

STEP 4- EMBRACE THE PAIN - I know this sounds crazy, but this is the only way that can quicken the process, accept your situation for what it is. If someone hurts you? and never apologise? so be it, leave it to God. Your job is not to convince anyway about what they have put you through. your healing is about YOU. 

STEP 5- DO NOT COMPARE - Do not compare yourself to another sister or brother, you do not have to belittle yourself because of what you are going through. You need to allow the word of God to build your confidence, You need to remember that you are loved and valued, and bought at a price. So allowing others including yourself to speak negativity into your life? is not permitted, neither is it God's plan for you. 

Shalom 

Total Surrender

Before my walk with God, I can honestly admit that I never thought about his love towards me, I was too busy filling my empty void with pointless and empty relationships just to fill my empty void. When things did not go as I wanted, I would start torturing myself saying God does not love me and not happy with me. I would cry and nag and nag asking him ‘WHY?’ people told me you loved me so why did you let this happen? You can clearly see where I went wrong, why should anyone have to tell me my heavenly father loves me?

One day, the Holy Spirit convicted my heart and explained to me that I was trying to find happiness in empty things and I cannot discover my happiness until I am in the right relationship with God. I was truly confused because I thought my heart was with God all along, however the mistake I made, just like anyone was loving God when things went my way, and when they stopped going the way I wanted? I would come off the ‘His radar’.

I realised I was still empty even trying to do things myself, I desperately disliked the emptiness I felt, so I got on my knees and asked for forgiveness. Through this experience, I learnt that the only way you can fill a void is by giving it to the one who created you and created that void also.

Giving yourself to God means giving everything to God, it means being content with everything the lord is allowing us to go through without resentment because you will find that the void will become bigger. I am a runner, I run from everything that does not make sense to me, but it eventually reached a stage where I had to question my destination. Where am I running to? (Psalm 139:41).

Trusting God in our situations does not mean he will tell us what we want to hear and we cannot fight God with our emotions, as he does not respond to our ‘nagging emotions’. This does not mean that God does not love us, what this mean is that he is not satisfied with nor will he accept our fleshly behaviour. Not our will but ‘thy will be done’.

Shalom

Kneel before speech

Hi everyone

Unfortunately I won't be able to post as much due to my busy schedule but I will try my best to pop on as much as I can.

In other news, I have learnt a valuable lesson this week that I believe will stick to me until the end of time.

"KNEEL BEFORE SPEECH" . The simplest way for me to interpret this is, if you are about to make a decision while your emotions are fluctuating, Please take a step back from your so called BIG picture and get on your knees and speak to your heavenly father before making any permanent decision.

As females or even human being, we tend to think we know what we are doing when our emotions are all over the place, its like having the same plaster for about weeks on the same wound, if you do not pay attention the wound, how will you know if it's healing or not?. We tend to not pay attention to the lesson and how much our emotions is taking over our situation and once the damage is done, its like the plaster has not been taken off and you can see the big mess at the bottom.

However once a mistake is made, God is all loving and forgiving, Kneel before God but without complaints. Its an insult to complaint at God as it is an act of unbelief towards him.  Accept your doings as this will bring you true peace.

Acknowledge your wrongs and ask God to fix it, but also you must check yourself. Checking yourself starts with a change in your behaviour, and this begins with a change in the heart.

Shalom
G

V.O.T.D

V.O.T.D - Voice Of The Day















Holding on to the hurt will only harm you, it's a decision you have to make! So go ahead exhale, and release forgiveness (Mathew 6:12-15)



I pray this blesses your spirit as much as it has blessed mine.



shalom 

Grace

God exalts

                        Man will pop your bubble but God exalts and demotes (John 14:23)

Growing with God

 
Firstly I am going to highlight the story of Joseph, for those who are not very familiar with this story: CHECK: Genesis 37

One thing I have learnt from his story is that, He didn't fight the process but there was a lesson in every step and he was humble throughout. It was painful for him but the most important thing that was sufficient for him was in trust an faith in God. 

I have learnt to handle every moment of my life with prayers because my life is fragile without God. I spend my time chit-chatting with my heavenly father and honestly I CAN explain the experience, it is PEACEFUL and REASSURING! 

How? You may ask? (Hebrew 11:1) 

Learning to depend on God means not running to people and having a pity party about yourself! 

Their advice will not fill that void. The advice may work for that day but the next day what will you do? Run back to them again for advice? You need to LEARN to GROW by yourself and begin to love yourself in the process! 

The arms that holds the universe is holding you, how can you honestly not be at peace with that??

You are a heir to the throne of the most high(GET TO KNOW YOURSELF through Christ) Pour your heart out to God because he knows everything you're going through, he is the only one that can listen to us without getting tired and understands us 100%! 

It's funny a lot of us have that 1 friend whom we tell anything but here's a question - half of the things you tell this person, do you even tell God? Then when problem occur we say "oh God why didn't you show me this would happen?! News flash did you inform him when you made that particular decision? If you have a relationship with someone, you have to understand communication works both ways that's the same with God! You have to ask first, then he will instruct you. You can't do it, then ask him why he allowed that to happen. The BIG question is WHY didn't you tell him at first?

Shalom 

Grace 

I don’t need you, but I still want you

Firstly I know this title is probably baffling to a lot of you, but the Holy Spirit ministered this to me as I finished studying today. I was getting up to enjoy my leisure time but in between this I was speaking boldness into my life.

Don’t you find it funny that, God thugs on our heart and tries to pull us nearer for our own sake, but then we keep running, and he sits back and watch we act like we do not need him then when we want something we want him? The definite truth is we cannot choose when we want God, and when we don’t, this will lead to frustration because God is not a genie that will pop out when we want him to. Seeking the spirit without the word will not work as these two cannot be separated, because they always work together in perfect harmony.

I find myself asking this question each day “Do I love God because of what he does for me, or because of who he is?” (John 6:26-27). I am grateful to the almighty that my answer is not in the department of what he does for me.

I have learnt over the previous months, when you take time away from God, you are inviting the devil to feed you his lies, and you eventually fall into the trap of believing him, then we come running back to God and asking “WHY?” I don’t know about you but I am terrified for the day God will give me an answer to my many “WHY’s”. God should never be an option in/on our menu, he should be THE MENU.

God has called us to be dependent on him for everything, neediness is holy in the eyes of our heavenly father. In needing God we must learn to totally surrender our pride and control so that God can then mold us into the person he longs for us to be.

Shalom

Grace